here does the power come from, to see the race to its end?"
Eric Liddell, Missionary and Olympic Champion
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Who is Claudia Berryman-Shafer, and why we honor
her today
By Gordon Cherr
I met her somewhere at an ultra, a long ago. I just don't remember where or
when. She was a pleasant enough lady, who ran and climbed mountains with her
husband, Jim. She didn't boast of those accomplishments, but she did brag plenty
on her kids. By that I mean she taught school, in Nevada, I think she said,
fifth grade, maybe it was seventh. I don't know, it was a chance encounter at
the end of long day and a lot of miles. And a great many more miles have passed
since that day.
I later heard that she had breast cancer. I don't know how I learned of that
either. But it really didn't register, she was a person far away. Besides, right
now I know three people who are living with "end stage" cancer. Liver, stomach,
brain, lungs....why, why, why? Last week I went to "Art in the Park", downtown
on Park Avenue, and walked up on a man wearing a Superman outfit. Corey was
visiting for the weekend with wife and grand-daughter, he and I were walking
together and talking quietly, and suddenly both of our hearts did an unexpected
flip-flop. I immediately expected to see Tim, he was Superman, remember? And
Spiderman and Batman and Popeye. No one else should be allowed to wear that
costume. Ever.
I thought long and hard about it that night and revisited the "Remembrances of
Tim Simpkins", which many people contributed to on the club's web site. I reread
them all. I found this one to speak the most truth to me:
"For me, thinking about Tim reminds me about every day I ever ran. The memory
of Tim reminds me of every day I went down to Mike Long track in the blistering
sun to run intervals and hear Tim's over-enthusiasm. It reminds me of every race
I ever ran with or without Tim, who was there and what happened . . . . Tim
reminds me of what each day smelled like, felt like and tasted like. Tim makes
me remember how good it felt to get to run, to run fast or to run easy. Tim
reminds me of every trail, street and dirt road I ever ran down. He reminds me
of all the possibilities I used to dream of, of how good I wanted to be.
Tim reminds me of everything I ever did each day before I ran. What it was like
to get ready to run: by myself in my apartment, with teammates in the
locker-rooms, with my father. Tim reminds me what it was like to be in school,
to have friends, to go to work in the mornings, to wake up with my family, to be
a college student in a cheap apartment during a Tallahassee summer. He makes me
remember what it was like to look forward on all those days to going for a run.
Even if I didn't look forward to the runs on those days, Tim reminds me that I
just didn't know I was looking forward to them. He makes me look forward to them
retroactively.
All of this that Tim has made me remember also makes realize how limited this time is, how few times I will get to go run. Tim makes me appreciate every opportunity I ever got to run or to race. He makes me appreciate every dump I ever lived in that was jogging distance to the track. Because of Tim, I now can never really think back on any of that running with regret. Even in spite of my failures, Tim makes me love every minute I ever ran or did anything remotely related to running. Not surprisingly, I am also beginning to appreciate just about everything I ever got to do in life.
I do not know entirely what death, or life, is. Nor (I think) does anyone. Certainly we have faith, hope, speculation and assumption. But, in part because of Tim, I can't wait to wake up tomorrow... and I can't wait to run again."
(I would be remiss if I did not tell you that this tribute to Tim was written by Corey Cherr).